Journal 13

Hello. This week, my heart has been feeling kind of heavy. Sometimes I get to feeling so lonely, I feel like the crab man character from Futurama. I don’t even like the show that much, but I do remember the crab always being left out of the friend group. I think a lot of us feel like the crab character these days.

Sometimes, I feel like whole pages of my life have been blank where they should have been filled. I remember this started in my late teens, this feeling of having so much to contribute but not having a place to share it. At some point, female friendship just fell off a cliff for me, and no matter how hard I tried, it just wasn’t happening.

But I am extremely grateful to have my feline and my partner. Even the olds, as difficult as they can be. It is like night and day when you do not have a family versus when you do. Whatever our situations are, let us both keep moving forward.

And to help us move forward are the silly fun things that we can control right now! My Skims clothes were actually a success. I can’t believe it! I haven’t worn women’s tops in years because they cinch me at the armholes and cut off my circulation. The armpit has a surprising amount of activity going on— it deeply doesn’t feel good to pinch things in that area. Also, the clothes are so stretchy that they can wrap around your body nicely. And these items were not even tall sizes. What a relief, I am happy I tried this brand.

Another thing I like to do when I feel down is play Minecraft. I am not a super advanced player or anything, but it’s very enjoyable for me to just explore, hang around in the mines, and build little structures.

Hope you have a lovely happy week!

Asya